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Through the Lens

I am in recovery for anorexia. I have not, nor am I currently, at any kind of treatment center. I have the most amazing therapist and a decent Harvard-trained herbal psychiatrist. (Go natural supplements!) I have been anorexic for about 11 years, give or take. A select few friends know, two of whom, used to have eating disorders too and are now recovered. I intend to make recovery a priority from now on. Unfortunately, I have my fair share of bad days as well. Don't give up on me.

I love writing and keeping track of my thoughts. I have my B.A. in English - Creative Writing. I also LOVE English Literature (Think Shakespeare, Chaucer, Jane Austen, and Virginia Woolf.) Professionally, I plan to be a teacher. I currently work as a substitute in local districts. I have the patience and a fairly good sense of humor. I am also a professional ballet dancer. I am classically trained in the Royal Academy of Dance (R.A.D. method) since 9 yrs. old. I have trained and performed across the U.S. and internationally in Scotland and Italy. There are times when it is hard to take dance class because I can get preoccupied with the mirror and my shape but most of the time I am able to focus on the line of body in accordance with choreography. I titled this bio 'through the lens' because I am a freelance photographer. I love taking pictures of nature and sometimes post them here on LJ.

I have a LOT going on in my life as I attempt to finish my certification in Early Childhood Education, continue to dance and weight-train..... all while battling my eating disorder. It is a daily struggle.

I have GOALS that I want to achieve that I cannot, so long as I hold this ana with me. Leaving the LJ e.d. groups does not mean the ana is gone. It is still very much present. But I am fighting it every day and will continue to fight it until I am better. G-D does not give us mountains that we cannot climb.


As a little p.s. I am NOT pro-ana. I do not tell teeny-bopper children to do these behaviors to lose a few. So if you are pro-ana or pro-mia, please do not add me. Sorry, nothing personal. This is a disease and an addiction. Not a choice.

Please do not judge me. First impressions are one thing, judgement, another. Only G-D can judge. This is extremely difficult, and if I have added you, it means that I trusted you enough to let you in to my world. If you want to be removed, just ask. But I hope you will stick with me. Often, I need encouragement and reminders - even if I do not take the advice you give me. I am opened to answering questions you may have for me, but only because this is LJ. I rarely talk about my e.d. outside of LJ except to my very closest friends. There is a lot more to me than my e.d. But I post MAINLY about it on this blog. I'd like to hear more about you too and help you however I can, whether it be giving advice, exchanging ideas and opinions on various issues, or even just listening. I am struggling though, so please bear with me and love me for who I am.



Namaste.

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